Have you ever been somewhere that you absolutely hated? A place far from home and family? A place that you could never like or love? Then suddenly, with time and new eyes, you see it’s beauty. It’s potential. But then it’s too late.. you have to go.
Well, that is me and my love for the Brandon, Manitoba, area.
When we moved to Shilo, MB (10 minutes east of Brandon), I had a hard time adjusting. Mark was sent on course almost immediately for a month and a half and I had no one. Being an introvert (an extreme one at times), this was not an ideal situation for me. I don’t mind being alone but I hate feeling alone. Does that make sense? Anyway, I was broken. I hated our new home. I hated Shilo. I hated Manitoba. And I let people know my dislike for the place. But over time, I grew comfortable. I felt safe. I found my rhythm and I became content. I became so happy and content there that I never wanted to leave! My heart felt like it was breaking every time we would be going home for a visit. I wanted to stay in my PMQ, with the little amount of stuff that we had, with our tiny tv that you had to squint or sit close to see certain things on.
I don’t know what it is, but my heart is just aching to go back…
I knew less people, I didn’t have a job, I went back and forth to going to school and not going to school, it was a bit of a drive to get to anywhere “scenic”, and I had less opportunities thrown my way / that I went for. But I saw my husband more. Our life was lame and boring but it was perfect. It is where we got 2 of our now 4 pets. It is where we got to cheer on our “home” team, the Wheat Kings, who are actually an amazing WHL hockey team. It is where we spent most of our money on going to the movies. It is where we saw the Ottawa Senators (our favourite team) beat the Winnipeg Jets (sorry, Jets fans). It is where we discovered my pregnancy that was quickly cut short. It is where I grew up (just a little).
This was our home. Our first home away from “home” (the East Coast).
I miss it. I miss Manitoba.
Sorry for the sad, bummer, complaint-type post. I just really needed to get some of my feelings out there.